Tuesday, 22 April 2014

How do I go on?

Dear God,I can't go on
The hurdles are breaking me to pieces
I don't have the strength to look at him
Where is the road for me to follow?
Or the hope to look at the road ahead 

How do I go on?

Look, hasn't this cycle happened in my life over and over again?
When  shall it be broken?
Who am I that I cannot find rest from the tales/ ghost of my past?
Am I not worthy to be loved the way you have taught me in your word?

How do I go on?

I am angry 
I am hurt
I requested something from you Lord 
With pain, begging, weeping 
I knew my choices had many times led me to shame
And I wanted love that never came
Many vows that were broken
Let's not talk about lies that gave me false hope.
I am again witnessing them happen again

How can I go on?

Of what value am I?
 The one thing I want to keep a tight rope on 
The one thing I never want experience nor my children plagues my life
How long LORD?

How can I go on?

What do I do
I do not trust him
I am angry
Where is the Truth?
Where is the Action?
I do not have the strength to bare this scars 

So how can I go on?

As I begin to regret my choice 
Knowing full well that I am not perfect 
I wish things were different
I wish I could forgive you
God, if this must go on 
You must change lot of things 
I desire perfect, but in essence I really want more of you 
God I will take a miracle too
I will take you intervening

Help me go on...



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